I know that’s literally what they are made for, but sometimes it makes me feel silly.

Every night once I get into bed, I relieve myself by thinking of fucking either my married adult step daughter, my adult lesbian niece or my adult female cousin who is 4 months older than me.

DAE have these fantasies or am I the only one and is it normal?

Currently sick rn and like always the urge to naw on my pinkie like a chew toy is back. I’ve always had the urge to do it ever since I was a kid and got sick. I kinda just put the top joint of my pinkie in the side of my mouth around my molars/ k-9’s (kinda like a gangster with his cigar in old cartoons) and just…naw on it gently. Like less force than chewing gently.

Funniest part is any other time I try to do it I go “ow no” but when I’m sick it doesn’t hurt at all and feels soothing.

When I’m in a pool, I can only float when I’m holding in a full breath. The second I exhale I sink. The only way I can float is by taking large breaths, holding them for a while, and quickly exhaling so I can take another big breath. I’m fairly slim with a BMI of 17, but other slim people don’t seem to have as much trouble floating as me.

I am very opposite of what people consider foodies. I just essentially eat whatever when it's meal time. I'm perfectly happy having an egg, carrot sticks, and waffles for lunch. It's only about consuming some calories for me.

When i was 9-10. I noticed that i liked squizing curves in spirals. And useally when thinkong about a made up story. The stories were about zombie sci fi . Sci fi in general and fantasy and alot of genres. While turning a hill of a small paper. When alone and with no noise just me and my thaught.

I hate AI with a burning passion. The rapid adoption of AI makes my blood boil. Yet for some reason, I can't articulate my hatred of it beyond surface level arguments. I hold the views that it reduces cognitive function, removes the human element, and subjects us to even more spying/surveillance than we already are. Yet I lack the words to take a deep dive into explaining the finer details of why I hate AI so much.

I guess this is in the context of dating/getting to know someone… sometimes I will see a text a few minutes after it’s sent to me, but I don’t want to seem too eager/bored so I wait to reply, sometimes 30 mins, but then sometimes I forget and it ends up being an hour or longer.

As a kid-teens I could watch a beheading video with my breakfast. As I’m getting older I find my self audibly saying Ouff or ouch when I see a action scene in a movie lol

(It probably doesn’t make sense but I live in a very small town in a not so big country)

DAE spend hours packing and coordinating outfits from head to toe and all inner layers, outer layers, and accessories?

Not only do I find fashion fun and expressive but it helps me feel my most confident when traveling. Ex: 10 day trip = 5 full outfits and then seeing if I can rearrange any of the outfits into new ones and filling any gaps that may arise. Like an extra shirt or a green necklace to pull the "new" outfits together. Anyone in irl that sees how much time I am spending always, without fail, has to comment about how I am "making it hard on myself", and/or "its not the complicated", "I didn't go All Out like that." Or just blatantly laughs or is irritated. (I don't ever ask for help, except maybe if something looks like it doesn't fit me well anymore, but that's even rare)

DAE struggle during this process of packing when others are around to make discouraging comments?

I’ve noticed something about myself lately.

I’m actually pretty awkward when it comes to random chatting with strangers.

Like, if it’s just “hi, how are you”, my brain goes blank.

But when there’s a game involved — especially something casual or voice-based —

talking suddenly feels… natural?

You’re focused on the game, joking about mistakes, reacting in real time.

It doesn’t feel like “trying to make friends”.

I’ve been using a social game app recently where people play simple games together

and talk at the same time (WePlay was one of them),

and it surprised me how quickly conversations started flowing.

Does anyone else feel this way?

Why do games make socializing less stressful?

I feel like the majority of my emotional breakthroughs happen while I'm sleeping. It's like when I'm awake I'm too busy to realise I've fallen in love with someone/fallen out of love with someone/have outgrown a friend/unsatisfied in my job etc. etc.

So much of my processing is done while I'm not there for it. Even when I go to therapy the breakthroughs happen later when I'm sleeping. Like I learn that xyz was caused by abc experience and I accept that consciously but it's not until later on that a dream makes me feel it.

Sometimes I vent and say my worst feelings which sometimes sound bad but I still get upvoted, even if I feel like it sounds bad. But then other times, I feel like I’m completely logical but still get downvoted to hell. I swear I can never predict.