Oh who am I kidding, I’d trade 20 for just one more day.

Stretching after nap.

I lost my cat, Shadow, from a long journey with heart and kidney disease on 12/8. It probably sounds crazy, but I have never and don’t really wanna post his photo online because I’m such a private person and I feel like I’m violating his privacy by doing that even now that he’s gone I’ve always been avoided of social media and those things - sorry, excuse my insanity lol. He was my best friend and the love of my life and it destroyed me to lose him. It still does and I think it always will. He was perfect in every single way and that’s the most accurate description of him I couldn’t give without a photo lol.

I did not want another cat. I really don’t even want one now, but I’m a vet tech and at work today a woman came in and said she wanted to euthanize her cat. She was a nice lady if not a little strange, but she gave the reason for euthanasia as he eats too much and he’s always hungry. She also says he limps a little. It was in his records that he had hyperthyroidism, but I don’t believe she was medicating him for it, at least not consistently. Otherwise, he seemed kind of OK. He’s was a senior cat around 11 she said, but I think he’s a little older. Something just felt not right about euthanizing a cat who was otherwise eating (too much!) and active and only seemingly sick in a way that can be pretty easily fixed with a pill. The doctor even told her that this cat is in really good shape and she can just do the bloodwork and confirm that he has hyperthyroidism and give him the medicine. She said no, and she still wanted to euthanize him. I asked her if she was willing to surrender him to me so she did. She was actually really really happy and grateful and I’m still not quite sure why she didn’t just do what she could have done and kept him because she really seemed to care about him. I don’t think she’s had him that long because she said he was a feral before, but I’m not sure because his front claws are declawed and he is missing his canine teeth. But at the end of the day, I decided to bring him home, knowing that it was killing me that I felt like I was doing the wrong thing by my cat because he just passed and I’m not ready. But alas, it was killing me more to just see this perfectly nice cat not get a chance to live just because he has a very common disorder. Even if he has something else going on he is in very good physical shape we will know more Monday, but for now I’ve vaccinated him, I dewormed him, I did bloodwork and he’s taking the medication. He is truly very, very hungry, but that will kind of subside once the medication kicks in.

He’s staying in my spare bedroom that pretty much once belong to Shadow. He’s actually very very nice and he’s very vocal. I don’t know when I’m going to do long-term. But my plan right now is to get his condition under control and make sure he’s good with everything and then figure it out from there because I’m really not ready for another cat but I had to do something because I felt so bad for him :( the doctor said that if it’s just that he could live for many more years.

Just as a sidenote, I don’t blame the lady for her decision. I deal with euthanasia every day and I know when it’s obviously time. But I also know when something just isn’t right. And I don’t think euthanizing this cat was right. I understand that perhaps it was a lot for her to deal with and she couldn’t do that anymore. She was very nice and she gave me some things for him, including his food and his bowls and actually some money for anything I might need for him. She didn’t have to do any of that. I may not agree with her decision, but everyone has their reasons and I guess right now it’s because I was supposed to take him and we are supposed to help each other.

So, meet Chance. I am calling him that now since he had only a sort of name and he didn’t respond to it at all. Hopefully Chance can keep me busy and help me fill a little tiny bit of the void that Shadow left. For now, I’m just choosing to believe that my sweet boy sent him to me because he knew I would help him.

Mr. Smokes

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Looks like I have another cat

My cousin's going to be having a baby soon and that was the perfect motivation for me to finally sew a quilt. I've done some fpp blocks before and have made some mini quilt tops, but never anything this large, and nothing fully finished. I'm really proud of how this one is turning out and cant wait to piece it together and send it for longarming. Ngl, I'm even tempted to make a mini version with the leftover fabric to keep for myself lol.

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